I take a very deep breath as I look at your front door contemplating if I’m overstepping my boundaries with my brothers friends, but there is no one else in the world I can trust. I put one foot in front of the other while I hold my breath and knock on the door Hey, I’m really sorry to come over to your place so late, I uh just need to ask you something and I’m kind of embarrassed to ask, is it okay if I come inside?